Looking for answers

Tonight, just after dinner, we saw a rainbow outside the window. Not this one exactly, but one very similar to it. Immediately, I hoped it was an answer. A sign of what to do, signaling an end to this swirling mess of indecision and doubt that has been clouding our time together.

B has the week off from school and almost every moment has been filled with heavy discussions about what to do with our house and consequently, our lives. Renovate and stay? Do the bare minimum and sell? If sell, then where do we move? or Do minimal work and stay, saving money until some great opportunity presents itself?

We are completely perplexed by this situation, which probably means we should just chill out, make minor improvements and wait for some clarity. Right?

Do you ever.......

get the feeling that your life is turning out to be exactly as it should be, yet completely opposite from how you thought it would be?

Having one son, let alone two, just scratches the surface of things that are not as I might have imagined. When my 15...20....25 year old self thought about what my soon to be 35 year old self would be up to, it was so different, yet this feels exactly right.

So much to write about, so little time to write it.